Later reality...

gonna take a hiatus for awhile...

Passing of grandma

Today my mother passed from lung cancer at 62. This was a hard one for all of us in the family for nobody not even herself knew she was sick. I was fortunate to visit her in August when she first was diagnosed. This was probably the first time I prayed in a long time while I was at the hospital. I prayed that she didn't suffer anymore pain. But I wasn't ready to let go either. So when the funeral came I  became numb and shut down. I couldn't even give a speech at the funeral or read a scripture let alone let Parker see grandma in a casket. Maybe that's selfish but I don't want him to remember grandma that way. I want him to remember the good times he had with grandma. My only wish was that he got to spend 1 Christmas with her. That never happened:( That's my fault for having a job that needs you every holiday

Recent Updates

I know its been awhile but mommy's been busy taking care of her health issues. This week Parker has shown us he is learning more and more. He likes to read sentences from his school work to us. Putting words togther is an improvement.  He also has learned that this house has windows. So putting 3 locks on each door of this house to try and contain him just went out the window(no pun attended) He climbed out our kitchen window and was out playing out in the yard. Mommy was napping after her dentist appointment and heard his giggles echoing though the window. Thank god I heard him and that the dog was out barking at him as well, (she was out enjoying the day before the storm cam ) He ws having a good old time setting his kid pool up and playing in his sand box. But does show us that he is quick and that we need to watch him at all times. Lesson learned!